I think that LL has hit the nail on the head again. You already know that W still is entertaining notions of fleeing - there is precious little that you can do to prevent that from happening if she puts her mind to it.
My W also keeps notes on a large block calendar that she has in her nightstand. I made the choice when I started reading DB and the bulletin board that I would not snoop - and have not regretted it for a moment.
Quote from LL:
Quote: my only suggestion would be to stop reading the journal and simply let the days pass as they will...bd for you...enjoy the times that w does stay on the dance floor and keep busy with good kaw time when she does not.