Saw my W last night at a octoberfest celabration in the city were we first met. we both went to college there and I kept bumping into people who asked how the W was doing. I exspected this, so i delt and moved on. I was at a bar and felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and there she was. she looked beutifull.she said she hasent seen me in a long time and it was nice to see me now. at this point a female friend she had brought waked up and gave my W a hug and asked show how do you know ( my wife)? I responded shes a very old and dear friend. I wanted to scream SHES MY WIFE WHO DOSENT EVEN TELL ANYONE WE ARE MARRIED!! her friend then walked away.
I kept in mind she was drunk and had not returned my phone calls for 3 weeks. I reminded her about the paper work she needed to fill out for our medical claim and she said " I've been real busy but i will call yuou next week." well i started to get a little emotional, so I went outside.
One of my friends followed and was doing the drunk " counseler" thing when lo and behold she followed us out. my friend went back inside and the W and I kept talking. she stared at me and I smiled and asked her why was she staring. she told me I looked good and it was good to see me again. she then reached for a hug. I told her if she wants to see me she should call me, but right now I'm respecting her boundries and not calling, because she didnt retun my phone call. she told me thank you for that
she asked if I was happy. I rsponded I work on me every day. she told me shes glad to hear it, and shes glad im happy. I told her i miss her but I reiterated i respect her boundries.
then she said the line that, well, bothered me for the rest of the night. " well life is what it is."
thst line says to me 1. I dont want to make it better because i give up. 2. well you cant change anything so why try.
I did get a hug after another minute of small talk, and then we went our seperate ways.
It will be 10 months october 15. God I thought this woul be easyer. Its like she wants a D but dose not want to file the papers, because then she would be " In the wrong." So instead she acts like shes single. tells everyone she " in a relashonship", and I dont even know if she means me.
