I believe in Miracles

[istherehope]

Hi Sep,

Thanks! Don't worry about being hard on me. I think a lot of people were because I needed it. I let the physical distance between me, H, and the rest of my normal life take its toll on me. Also, whereas I think a lot of the rest of the people on the boards heard that horrid spew at the beginning of the process, I'd been spared a lot of it until the last week or so, and then it came like a slap in the face, like my DBing had meant nothing. So I didn't see the hope for the M that was there, and was just so sick of trying to find things to do for myself here in a place I don't particularly want to be :).

Obviously things have improved though, and I felt better after watching the Secret, even before H's somewhat good email came through, so I don't think it improved JUST because of him. Whatever caused the improvement, I'm grateful. Yes it's baby steps now. The nice nickname actually means LOADS to me. A lot can and probably will happen over my last couple of weeks here. I still need to make some decisions around where/when to go back, but I am hoping for a "sign" that will tell me when/how to make these :). Right now I just am not sure.

ITH