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[ACJ]

Yesterday was hectic.

First I drove halfway down the country and back to take D18 to uni. I am so excited for her. She is not one to travel light and she packed just about everything she owns to take with her! I did at one point remind her that she is sharing a room for the first few weeks and that it will only be a small room but she still managed to fill the boot and back seat not only of her car but mine also! We picked her BF up on the way and I enlisted his help to encourage her to reconsider. For example she quite literally had about 25 pairs of shoes with her! At this point we managed to persuade her to cut one bag of clothes and one bag of shoes! When we finally got into the room she has been allocated it finally dawned on her that I was right (yoohoo ) and I returned with approximately the same amount in my car as I had taken! The room sharing experience is temporary so she will probably have to move in the next few weeks anyway. One thing I can guarentee is that she will never pack this much again! That in itself has to have been a good lesson to learn. I was actually very proud of myself as things could've got very tense during these 'negotiations' and I kept my calm and we all had a lovely day.

When I got home again I literally had an hour to turn myself around into a 'stunning goddess' as I was going to a black tie ball with the social network group. I arrived on time by the skin of my teeth!

I had a fantastic time and two of the 3 men I ended up drinking with last weekend were also there one of which was particularly attentive again. That has boosted my ego somewhat again

Now its the very early hours of the morning, 4.47 to be precise, and my feet are throbbing like mad but it was worth it. As I was driving home I obviously didn't drink and I ended up dropping a car full of people home (including Mr Attentive).

See now I'm struggling with knowing that I've moved on sufficiently to progress the D and the house sale. Suddenly I find myself with male attention that I haven't had since I was 19 (when I met H) and I'm not quite sure how to react. The 'Godly' side of me says 'you're still M' but the human side of me says 'so what you deserve to be happy'. The Godly side is winning at the moment but I don't actually know that I want it to.

Do these dilemmas ever end?

[BeingMe]

Gosh, ACJ! I hope the human side wins eventually. You deserve a bit of fun, and happiness. At least, allow yourself the freedom of making dating an option in the future. Doesn't have to be serious ... just a bloke to have fun with, and an arm on which to drape yourself.

Glad you had somewhere fab to go this weekend. Bet you were the belle of the ball. Good job with your D18 ... you didn't allow yourself to get frustrated, but let her learn the lesson all by herself. You were still, however, her soft place to fall. Brilliantly done! I am still trying to learn that lesson meself.

Take care.

[ACJ]

just a bloke to have fun with, and an arm on which to drape yourself.

That made me laugh b/c the guy I was dancing with last night (same one as last week) is a keen salsa dancer and decided that we were going to dance salsa. That's ok except I've never had salsa dance lesson in my life I'm sure we looked an 'interesting' couple to say the least. I love to dance so I managed to keep up but I definately need those salsa lessons I've been promising myself for at least 2 years now

Just the fact that men 8-10 years younger are asking me to dance is a real thrill. Haven't quite nailed the 'slow dance' yet but I'm working on it!

[naej]

I wish I had your problems Alison, well not the H related ones just the young dancin men ones!

Enjoy it whilst it lasts -great to hear you had some male atten. and fun--sure does make a body feel real good,- to use the lingo of our us cousins.

[Truelove]

Hi ACJ,
I am happy for you that you had a super week-end dancing away!!!You deserve to have some fun. It must have felt really good to get the attention of so much younger men.

Just what does this social network group do that they have black tie balls??

Have a lovely week. (((HUGS)))

[ACJ]

Just what does this social network group do that they have black tie balls??

They give you the opportunity to do anything from going out for a meal to white water rafting down the Grand Canyon. They send out a monthly newsletter and you just book on what you fancy and which fits into your budget. Its a great way to meet new friends. I purposely chose this one as it advocates it is NOT a dating agency but of course when you put large numbers of men and women together it is inevitable that some of them will get together. There are also franchises all over the country so there is opportunity to meet new people in new areas especiailly when they put on national events and holidays. For me though it is still very much about having fun and making new female friends. However, I always have found it easier to talk to men than women and I am actually finding it harder to find new female friends than I am male friends.

Oh well such is life

[princess_nic]

Oh my, Alison, you sure have been going through a lot with your H and the D. I am so pleased that you are strong enough to see this through with YOUR best interests mind (and those of your children). I'm sure stbx will be surprised at your backbone!!

I'm delighted that, despite all this, you are finding the energy to go out and have fun. How lovely, even if it doesn't go further than that.

Love,
Nicola

[ACJ]

Thanks Nic. I can't believe how liberated I feel just making that one decision. I've just been speaking to a work colleague on the phone and he commented that the last time he saw me (couple of weeks ago) I looked a lot brighter. That was before all of this so I should look positively glowing now.

Watch out H somebody will be jumping in your shoes quicker than you expect at this rate

[Andabelle]

That's the spirit!!!!!!!!!!

[BeingMe]

Brilliant attitude, ACJ!