Thanks to both of you for being kind and caring. This is the most impossible situation, when a relationship provides you SO MUCH and this is lacking/non-existent and is so important to you. It is hard not to feel shallow and, I don't know, sick somehow, for wanting what is natural to want with your partner?
We've ineffectively tried to break up. This is NOT how I normally do relationships. Very complicated because there is so much good. And I want to scream and rage and cry constantly at the unfairness of it. We are to the point that I can't say anything because she gets defensive and we both just feel awful.
