Deep down, you STILL have feelings for him. I can see it. I see you being strong. Standing up to him more. Glad you took mine and Pups advice on what you do when he is around.
You still have hope, don't you?
Yes, I still have feelings for him. I'm obviously a little bit crazy like he is I guess! How could you tell??? I guess that's why I still get bothered so much sometimes. But my head tells me I deserve better, someone nice, and I won't go back to being treated like dirt. I really mean that!
I used to think he was strong and I was weak, but in some ways I think lately that maybe it's the other way around, not that I'm that strong but stronger than him anyway. Yeah, if he came back tomorrow and said it's over with OW and I'll go to MC and I want a 2nd chance, I would probably say yes, but wouldn't we all? And I really don't think that would happen plus him transforming into a decently nice guy. It would be a total miracle, and I don't think those happen very often. As it is now, I know that I'll be better off without him and it did take me a long time, like last week or something, until I realized that....Karen (and now we return your thread back to you Yenko! Please feel free to come over and hijack mine--we all seem to do that sometimes!!!
