I am with you that my prayers change..however lately I have been really trying to focus on the ME in teh prayer and not xh. I do pray for him -- how can I not? you know? he is seeking things that can not be fulfilled the way he is trying-- makes me sad. but I can't change or even help him.
funny to have you say I sound good. let me tell you - my birthday was NOT a good day....
Books? Just got done rereading "when he leaves.." I saw things so much differently this time. I have always read a great book called "The Shack" that one is about a guy who "meets God" in a shack....really really good read!! Also been heading back into the BIBLE. Been reading it all along, but spending some more time there.
Found out that there is a organization here for all sorts of get togethers..from outdoor stuff to book clubs all different ideas. I am thinking about joining..but it woudl be huge for me cause I would have to go places alone...it also cost a little bit of money and since it is a bit sparce right nwo I am holding off...but it is somethign I am thinking about. Sure do miss my friday night softball games.
Oh the BEST thing in the world happened. S19 surprised me by coming home this weekend. He and d12 planned it and he showed up at my work and surprised me!! IT MADE MY WEEKEND absolutely wonderful!! d12 gave up her sunday with her dad to be with him..... again the stupid reprocussions of the dog gone divorce!!
I am moving ahead. As I have said before my door is closed, but i am looking through the peep hole. I am seeing him through different eyes- he doesn't even physically look like himself..so weird.
Well need to go..ah yes - forgot to tell you i have come back from teh dead with my running!! SO glad!! But i have to get up early early to go...so bed time comes very wanted here!
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
