Peace, I have my mind trained....it is my heart that, at times, doesn't fall in line. I have accepted my new reality...but sometimes some things will just hit me. I have felt so much loss in this whole situation.....my marriage, my "perfect" family, some friends, and now some family. Just when I make it through one "loss", another one seems to hit and I have to start the "mourning" process all over again. It is so hard to be here. I don't write this to sound as pathetic as it will, but this is his town with his family and friends. I moved into his life and I really have no one here. Even our friends were couples and our separation has been a strain on them. I also neglected my past friendships, ones that I had before moving here, to focus on my family. Past "decisions" coming back to haunt me....
Breton, I may be making excuses....but I am fairly certain that H's parents have been told the marriage is over and so they think it is over. OW is not the original OW who aided in breaking up the marriage. That "true connection" lasted until November. I believe that this current OW cheated on her BF at some point late last spring (BF was very good friend of H). Of course, H's parents would have no way of knowing that. H's parents and I do not discuss anything with regard to the marriage...nothing. It is wierd at times, but I am so concerned about making them uncomfortable that I never bring it up. And what am I going to do....bad mouth their son to them? I don't know....
I know what you mean about humiliation. I remember feeling ashamed when people were first finding out about our separation. That seems so minor now....
