BBJ,

Just got caught up....I am speechless. I would like to say some stuff but I am afraid that my own sitch is tainting my judgement right now.....because some of the words coming out of your H's mouth sure sound familiar. I am really praying that he is not feeling pressure from another source and that he has really cut all ties....sorry...i had to say it.
I am very emotional these days and if I could I would just give you a big hug and tell you to hang in there. Do not blame yourself for what your H is going through. From where I am sitting everything he is feeling is self inflicted.
Good luck to you BBJ...let us know how things go tonight.