I did put away my suitcase today.
I can't use it, sitting there as a threat, it's not right.
He doesn't need the pressure of seeing it there day after day. Hopefully i won't have to get it back out.

Mat,

Im'e sure you could think of something if you try hard enough.

Today I went apple picking and came home and made apple crisp the grand boys will be coming over for me to baby sit. Should have said no as this was the only day off i had this week.
I do need time for me.

I know tomorrow I am starting a strict diet exercise program.
The stress has me munching and im'e gaining weight like crazy unlike when I got the bomb and couldn't touch food.


JAK

You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez