Yesterday was hard, I got through it okay. H showed up I could tell he was emotional, he said he is up and down, sometimes hourly, he looked kinda forlorn, I asked if he wanted a hug and he said he was okay, and then he said we have to be careful how we support one another. ?? Wasn't sure what that meant, but I won't ask again.
He called in the evening and apologized for some of the communication issues, like I thought his dog would be gone, but he is still here, stuff like that.
Today he is taking the kids out shopping for a TV and hanging out at his house, he is going to bring them back after supper. House is very quiet without them. I am not looking forward to next weekend, they will be gone all weekend with him.
I had a thought this morning while getting ready for church, I was thinking "geesh Lord what are you trying to teach me, I got it be patient", then all of a sudden a thought popped into my head, maybe I am not the one being taught? It was an interesting idea, I feel like there is some truth to that. It doesn't leave me any place different, but is somewhat comforting I guess.
I think I am going to watch a girly movie.
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08
