Close encounters of the MLC kind

[hoosiermama]

See, the thing is I believe he was the one for me. I think he developed a pattern of making easy, selfish choices and I let him do that. I don't think I settled, I think I saw potential in him that needed more guidance than I could provide. I couldn't have changed him, but I did get lazy or hopeless and enable him to deny anyone elses' needs besides his own. Had I been stronger, he may have left sooner--or he may have grown up a little. It's not my fault that we got to this point, but I did nothing to prevent it. I don't think I really knew how, not sure I still know how yet. But once again, I have the time and the space to get to know myself. I'm older, wiser, and have a wonderful child this time around.