hoooooooooooooosier

I felt some stark similarities with your story and the most helaing and beneficial thing dfor me was truly letting them go

realizing that i needed more

and

forgiving myself for settling

i felt like such a failure that i couldn't maintain this relationship and like even more of one for not wanting it

i realized that i was very prideful and God had been telling me that this person wasn't the one for me but i felt like i knew better

it was the giving up of that pride and humbling myself that was the most difficult and freeing thing