Hi nlt, Thanks for posting on my thread and your support. Yes, the gloomy days also get me depressed.
I am glad for you that you found things to do, some of them enven enjoyable ones. I am sure your X would be impressed. I don't think I could fix a window.
It wasn't easy by myself, as the top window almost fell! I'm going to caulk around all of them today & try to seal up the house for winter. Stuff that needed to be done a long time ago but H never got around to it.
We are having fall weather now, nights down to mid 50's, day in the lower to mid 80's. I was just thinking last night what great camping weather this would be. My H used to love going camping, it was ok for me, I didn't care about sleeping in a tent all that much but it wasn't bad & we enjoyed being together like that. I'm sure this OW doesn't go camping b/c he gave our camping gear to his S (first M).
I'm coming along pretty good on the cross stitch. It gives me something to do at night instead of sitting there watching TV & thinking about H.
Tonight I have a cousin who is coming in town & bringing some senior women, (I think most of them are in their 80's) to the Grand Ole Opry & they want me to go with them. So, I'm going & I'm working on getting them backstage as I know people that work on the show. So, at least I'm getting out a little bit.
I have to say that I'm rather proud of myself for fixing that window, it took some doing & I'm not good at stuff like that but it worked.
I just got back from a night at the Grand Ole Opry, my cousins & their friends really seemed to enjoy it. I got some of them backstage & that was a thrill for them.
sounds like you had a fun time. you are doing great and coming along just fine. i know you have your ups and downs but i think you are doing terrific.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
nlt, You are doing well...you may not even realize it, but you are getting stronger and more independent evey day. Look at you! Fixing windows and doing other "odd" jobs that your h never did. Be positive, never say "I can't do that", for you do not know your inner strength or determination.
What are you cross stitching? I'm sure you are doing a beautiful job on it. It will help to keep your mind off of those things that bring your focus back on your h.
N, you are and will be fine. It's a difficult journey, but one that will bring you back full circle to the person who were, are and will be in the future. Life's a journey...you only have a one way ticket....use it to your best advantage.
Have a good weekend.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Thank you all for checking in on me!! I'm rather tired today & just don't feel all that well. I'm not sure what it is & I've been depressed today. I guess it's just that time of year & with everything I've gone thru also.
I guess I can do more than I thought I could. Before I met my H I lived in an apartment & if anything went wrong I would call the office, before that I lived at home & my Dad fixed it. Now it's just me, of course my Dad will come help with some things but we stay pretty busy when they are here so I thought I would try those windows.
I haven't done too much today, like I said I've been sort of depressed. I did grill hamburgers tonight & will freeze some to have them later. That really makes me miss my H b/c he was the one that always grilled.
I'm cross stitching Summers Remembered by Paula Vaughan the one I'm working on now is called Pink Ribbon & the other one I'm going to do is called Blue Bonnet. The Pink Ribbon has a quilt, picnic basket sitting by an old fence with a hat on the fence. The other one has a quilt, chair, sewing basket sitting by a fence with a bonnet hanging on the chair. It will look really pretty hanging in my bedroom. I actually quit cross stitching for a while b/c it took me so long & now I can't see it as well, but I got several things to help me see it plus some things to help me go a little faster. I don't have to stop & change the thread everytime, I just have a bunch of needles already threaded with the color & I can get a lot done like that. I've actally got over half done. I crochet also & I did that for a long time, I could see more progress a lot faster than with cross stitching but I'm doing better with it this time. I can do it while I watch TV also so that will keep me awake & doing something.
I'm really missing my H tonight, it's like what has happened is a nightmare & it hasn't really happened & he will be home soon. I just can't imagine never seeing him again. When he left in April he said "Have a nice life" like we would never see each other again. That was very hurtful, but I don't feel like it's the end just yet, I may be totally wrong but I don't feel it.
Ok, so there is no one that I can vent to but you guys. I love my parents dearly & I know they want the best for me but they are wearing me out about a job! Even my Dad keeps saying, I'm glad you are getting the house fixed up so you can sell it, if you don't get a job you will have to. Then I have a lot of friends that keep asking do you have a job yet & all that sort of thing. My Mom will always tell me that so & so asked did I have a job. They are all wearing me out about it. I've got a few leads on some things but I'm just not going to say anything to anyone. I really don't need all that right now!! I've got & had enough on my plate for this past year. I know they all care about me & mean well but I just don't need that right now.
Sorry, I just had to vent to someone b/c I'm not saying it to anyone else around here.
nlt, Hugs to you. Hey, I cross-stitch and crochet as well. Haven't touched it in a long time though and have unfinished pieces.
Sorry you're felling depressed. Bring these feelings to God and cry out to Him to help you. He understands and will comfort you. He is the Best Person to turn to. Of course we are here for you as well.
