Thank you all for checking in on me!! I'm rather tired today & just don't feel all that well. I'm not sure what it is & I've been depressed today. I guess it's just that time of year & with everything I've gone thru also.
I guess I can do more than I thought I could. Before I met my H I lived in an apartment & if anything went wrong I would call the office, before that I lived at home & my Dad fixed it. Now it's just me, of course my Dad will come help with some things but we stay pretty busy when they are here so I thought I would try those windows.
I haven't done too much today, like I said I've been sort of depressed. I did grill hamburgers tonight & will freeze some to have them later. That really makes me miss my H b/c he was the one that always grilled.
I'm cross stitching Summers Remembered by Paula Vaughan the one I'm working on now is called Pink Ribbon & the other one I'm going to do is called Blue Bonnet. The Pink Ribbon has a quilt, picnic basket sitting by an old fence with a hat on the fence. The other one has a quilt, chair, sewing basket sitting by a fence with a bonnet hanging on the chair. It will look really pretty hanging in my bedroom. I actually quit cross stitching for a while b/c it took me so long & now I can't see it as well, but I got several things to help me see it plus some things to help me go a little faster. I don't have to stop & change the thread everytime, I just have a bunch of needles already threaded with the color & I can get a lot done like that. I've actally got over half done. I crochet also & I did that for a long time, I could see more progress a lot faster than with cross stitching but I'm doing better with it this time. I can do it while I watch TV also so that will keep me awake & doing something.
I'm really missing my H tonight, it's like what has happened is a nightmare & it hasn't really happened & he will be home soon. I just can't imagine never seeing him again. When he left in April he said "Have a nice life" like we would never see each other again. That was very hurtful, but I don't feel like it's the end just yet, I may be totally wrong but I don't feel it.
Ok, so there is no one that I can vent to but you guys. I love my parents dearly & I know they want the best for me but they are wearing me out about a job! Even my Dad keeps saying, I'm glad you are getting the house fixed up so you can sell it, if you don't get a job you will have to. Then I have a lot of friends that keep asking do you have a job yet & all that sort of thing. My Mom will always tell me that so & so asked did I have a job. They are all wearing me out about it. I've got a few leads on some things but I'm just not going to say anything to anyone. I really don't need all that right now!! I've got & had enough on my plate for this past year. I know they all care about me & mean well but I just don't need that right now.
Sorry, I just had to vent to someone b/c I'm not saying it to anyone else around here.
