Yesterday was hectic.

First I drove halfway down the country and back to take D18 to uni. I am so excited for her. She is not one to travel light and she packed just about everything she owns to take with her! I did at one point remind her that she is sharing a room for the first few weeks and that it will only be a small room but she still managed to fill the boot and back seat not only of her car but mine also! We picked her BF up on the way and I enlisted his help to encourage her to reconsider. For example she quite literally had about 25 pairs of shoes with her! At this point we managed to persuade her to cut one bag of clothes and one bag of shoes! When we finally got into the room she has been allocated it finally dawned on her that I was right (yoohoo ) and I returned with approximately the same amount in my car as I had taken! The room sharing experience is temporary so she will probably have to move in the next few weeks anyway. One thing I can guarentee is that she will never pack this much again! That in itself has to have been a good lesson to learn. I was actually very proud of myself as things could've got very tense during these 'negotiations' and I kept my calm and we all had a lovely day.

When I got home again I literally had an hour to turn myself around into a 'stunning goddess' as I was going to a black tie ball with the social network group. I arrived on time by the skin of my teeth!

I had a fantastic time and two of the 3 men I ended up drinking with last weekend were also there one of which was particularly attentive again. That has boosted my ego somewhat again

Now its the very early hours of the morning, 4.47 to be precise, and my feet are throbbing like mad but it was worth it. As I was driving home I obviously didn't drink and I ended up dropping a car full of people home (including Mr Attentive).

See now I'm struggling with knowing that I've moved on sufficiently to progress the D and the house sale. Suddenly I find myself with male attention that I haven't had since I was 19 (when I met H) and I'm not quite sure how to react. The 'Godly' side of me says 'you're still M' but the human side of me says 'so what you deserve to be happy'. The Godly side is winning at the moment but I don't actually know that I want it to.

Do these dilemmas ever end?


Me 43
XH 45
M 2.7.88
Divorce 7.10.09
Kids D20,S17 & D15