Was at work today and finished early, but stayed several hours later to keep her from running off to see OM. She uses one of her specific errands as a euphamism for going off to meet him. We had a children's party to go to in the evening and my timing was perfect in keeping her around. However, I know she will engineer a way to see him. I don't care about the infidelity, but it is the lies and being thought of as a dupe that really bothers me.
I feel a tremendous urge to expose her and create a situation where she feels shame, guilt, and hopefully some remorse. Perhaps also some hyperventilation and yelling and crying and mental anguish thrown in for good measure.
At the party she was talking to one of the other moms and they were discussing their pregnancies and she made a comment about how big she got and how she would walk up to a table and lift up her belly and flop it down on the talble to get close enough to do anything. I had to walk out because I teared up over how bad the situation was and how our lives have taken such a downward turn.
