no expectations 9

[peacetoday]

Upside
nothing new here.
H is away on a week trip to visit his family that he hasnt seen in many years..He mentioned to my D that he visited his childhood house and school..That is probably a good thing.
He continues to gain weight, manage his work issues poorly, stall, avoid the Lawyers and basically not really move anywhere..
he visits 4x a week and is usually friendly..talks about his work struggles ..but he continues to believe our M is over..
so
I see him closer to a bottom depressed confused unhappy but he contines to ,maintain staying above bottom
He could be there a long time..
H still denies OW
I am moving forward
not dating but noticing
working on me my kids and my business
working on being ok with it all and letting H go
still in couseling and I definitely see hope for a new start
I also am really wondering if anything is left for me and H
I think I am going forward and there seems to be no room for back
I may be done with H
so for any of you out there that think we never get done
I thought I would never let H go
but I now see the light at the end of my tunnel
life will be fine and maybe better than I knew without H
Peace