Well...let's see...short update....went to a concert lastnight. He came over to pick up D so he could spend some time with her while I was gone. When he got here I was ready for the concert...D walked out the door in front of him and he kind of gave me a weird smile and said have fun...as he turned away...I got brave and little playful and said...Hey? Do you think I look good? He said...yes you do...I said how does my butt look in these jeans and turned around. He said..."it looks good". So here is where I got really brave...I said...don't you just want to take me and make love to me right now? He said..."oh like I can do that right now...D is waiting in the car". So I said, but don't you want to? He said..."yes". I pulled him back in the house, shut the door and started kissing him. Kissed him for a bit..and then said ok...you better go.
Today he called and asked me how my concert went and to tell me he called in sick today and was in Reno with his friends. After we exchanged pleasantries I asked him if he wanted to talk to D since that's normally why he calls and he said he had already called her on her cell phone, but he wanted to find out if I had fun the night before. He told me how much fun he was having in Reno and we ended the convo.
I don't feel as anxious as I used to wondering what the motives behind his every move are, but I would be telling an untruth if I said I'm not curious as to why after all these months this is the first time he's actually called to talk to me about something other than D visitation.
One other thing....day before yesterday when he dropped D off I told him it made me sad that he always thinks the worst of me and my intentions. It was very strange...he said "no I don't..I've actually been realizing a lot of positive things about you lately" I must have looked stunned and actually so did he...he looked like he couldn't believe those words had just escaped his mouth and he then completely changed the path of the convo. Actually shook his head like he had had an out of body experience and then started saying how too much had happened in R and he couldn't get over the anger...didn't love me like he should...etc. Then out of nowhere he started asking about if any guys had been hitting on me lately. I told him actually...yes they have...I've been getting out more and men have definitely showed an interest...then he asked if any of them worked with me. I told him no. I think it's safe to say he's very confused.
