Close encounters of the MLC kind

[hoosiermama]

I'm kinda having a bad day. I don't think it's the "H is getting settled elsewhere" thing, I think it's just everything catching up with me. It's 7:15 pm and I haven't gotten dressed yet. In fact, I haven't done much of anything; read some, surfed some, slept a lot (I'm catching a cold). My house is an absolute disaster, has been for months, and I don't seem to be able to summon the energy to do much besides wash dishes and clothes. D's taking a bubble bath with her new inflatable bath pillow (a hedonistic child) and I just began sobbing and couldn't stop. Nothing in particular set it off, I just lost it. Maybe the numb wore off. It seems like this whole mess has been going on forever, but it's only been 4 months. I'm lonely, I'm scared, I'm hurt, I want my life back or at least an opportunity to make the old one better. I want something to look forward to.

Okay, yes--I'm out of antidepressants. H was supposed to deposit money before he went away last weekend, and didn't until Tuesday. So what he deposited got eaten up in overdraft fees from the automatic withdrawals. And I have a negative balance until Wednesday. The fun just never ends.