Well, I had the "talk" last night with him. I was upset yesterday about something totally unrelated to our marital status when I talked to him so my emotions were on overload. I told him I'm tired of it, I'm tired of everything... He got real quiet. I got quiet. He said are you still there? I said yes. He said I thought I lost you. I told him I could no longer live in limboland that I wanted to get a divorce. I said you won't make up your mind so I'm doing it. I can't live like this forever. I told him that I wanted a fair divorce that we would split everything in half. He then told me that if I took half of the business that he would probably have to file bankruptcy. I said I did not ask for all of this to happen, but I will not let you have everything that we worked for together to build. He said I won't be able to send the girls to school. I said I do not plan on barely getting by while you do whatever and whenever you decide to do it. He said I think about our situation everyday and everynight. I said is the only reason you called off the divorce is you don't want to lose the business. He said no, that's not it. He then told me that he had to go to the bank and then he would come get me for the game that was out of town. I barely talked to him on the way up there. I noticed he kept staring at me out of the corner of my eye. After the game we driving home and his phone rang. He looked at it and silenced it. I said who was that? He didn't answer and I kept staring at him. He finally said, yes it was her. I said well, don't let me stop you from talking to her in a very cold voice. When we got to my house he told me that he isn't involved with her anymore, but they do talk on the phone, that she calls him. I said you will always be involved with her as long as she works for you. He said he was afraid to fire her because he was afraid she would sue him for unjust dismissal, but thought if she knew we were getting back together she would quit. I told him I could not tolerate the way he has treated me anymore. I told him that he had not even tried to work on our marriage. He got really quiet and said in a very quiet remorseful voice, I know. I told him that all marriages have problems and ours had ours, but until we worked on them they couldn't be fixed. I said no one wins in a divorce, not you, not me, not the kids. He said I know. I told him that if he wanted to be with her, he should be with her, but given time they too would have problems because all marriages do. He said I know. I gave him lots of "truth darts" as Puppy would call them.




Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are.
-- Bernice Johnson Reagon