On Wednesday we had our team meeting. At one point CEO asked what the difference was between a 'confirmed girlfriend' and a 'validated girlfriend' (It was a play on a drug development joke- hard to explain!). When he said it he looked directly at me and asked me which I thought was better.

On Thursday we had a big meeting and I was doing a presentation. I thought I did it well (presenting is a massive part of my job so I'm used to doing it professionally and well. once I played the same venue as David Bowie, although we obviously weren't on the same bill- I was afternoon and he was evening!). After my presentation, anyway, I went and sat on the chair next to CEO. Glancing over at his pad of paper I saw that he'd written 'This is a presentation, NOT a striptease'. Needless to say that I was pretty outraged by it! But I didn't say anything in the meeting.

Immediately after the meeting CEO came to Austin and I and in a friendly was apologied for not going out on Wednesday and then asked if we'd found a man and ravaged him all night. I ignored him completely and proceeded to all afternoon (which was easy as he was really busy with meetings). At home in the evening I thought about it more, and realised that it was probably a reflection of him thinking of me in a naughty way rather than my actual performance.

Friday came and CEO didn't come in until early afternoon. After getting in, anyway, CEO came over and asked if I was OK. I said I was fine and that I just wanted to be left alone. He asked me another 5 times what was wrong, and I told him in order to 'please leave me alone', 'go for lunch', 'just go away then', and 'look, I'll tell you when I'm ready'. So he went away for about an hour.

After that hour we had a conversation (in the kitchen, so in private) with CEO is full pursuit mode trying to find out what was wrong so he could fix it. I was still mad cou;dn't speak about it. Another hour then passed with CEO in a meeting but spending at least 95% of the time looking at me with concern on his face (I felt really bad at this point as he was trying so hard!). He was REALLY looking- my stomach butterflies were beating like mad.

We eventually had a meeting to discuss the presentation. He gave me his feedback and I discussed it with him. I called him on the striptease thing (which he didn't bring up) and he said he'd meant it in an intellectual way rather than physical. I'm not sure I believe that- I think it was a reflection of is personal desires (LOL) and I wasn't meant to see it. At one point CEO said to me that he had to give me feedback as he couldn't have favourites and people already suspected something (!!!!????). Rich Girl then came in and said he was missing an important meeting so we finished the conversation and he had his meeting.

We then spoke again an hour after that and he asked if I was still annoyed with him. I said I was fine and that I accepted some of the feedback but not all. Things were then OK (at least for me). We then chose the sink and wine chiller for his kitchen. I wasn't sure about the drainer and said I couldn't live with the one he wanted. He said he was getting a dishwasher too, which was sweet.

We then exchanged a couple of e-mails. The last was CEO saying I was 'going to be even more brilliant than I already am'. I the left work and had a great night out with Austin and friends

*sigh* You'd think, wouldn't you, that having a big fight would make me less susceptible to him. But instead, it's made my 'crush' even worse- he was so focussed on fixing what was wrong that he started missing meetings for me, him not being able to concentrate on his other work for looking at me and worrying about what was wrong. It's so different from my H behaves, and it was so nice to be pursued in that way. The other thing was that it felt really good to be able to express some anger and actually have a discussion with him about what was wrong. H would have just said 'I don't know what you want me to say', while CEO had a lot to say for himself.

*sigh, sigh, sigh*. On the plus side, at least it's helped distract me from thinking about H being on holiday this week. The thing is, it's all a big worry because CEO is becoming more and more attractive to me. It's dangerous for my DBing I know (so I don't need 2x4s! ;\) ).