I feel so ashamed and pathetic. My wife has denied me sexual relations for over a decade. She had a hysterectomy several years ago, but she has been denying me sex long before that point. She really is not interested in sex, and in fact, doesn't even want to discuss the subject.
It has been 14 years since this started. Is my marriage a fraud? I really don't want to give up on my marriage. I take my vows to my wife, and to God, seriously.
I have tried being a good husband. I has never cheated on my wife, and always been there fore her. I have ceded much of the control of our family to her. She decided what home we live in, what car I drive, what money we spend, where our children go to school.
Maybe I should just give up on sexual relations. My wife clearly has. She is focused really on money, not on God, or her husband. She really enjoys making money, and spending it. Perhaps I have enabled some of her behavior, but again, I have been extremely passive in our relationship.
We stopped having sex when I was in my 20's. I am now in my 40's, and not getting any younger. Maybe the time has just come to completely give up, and live out the rest of my life in this position. Quite honestly, I would almost prefer this, then another humiliating episode with my wife.
I feel like such a loser. Maybe that is the reality of the situation, and I need to accept it.
