I can wait this out, it isn't that bad, I have stuff to do and work on to keep me busy. It's more or less a matter of principle.
I guess I am in a different spot than most of the people on these boards because I am really young and everything in my life is unstable, not just my marriage. If I had a career, own apartment or house, and my own life settled it would not be that bad. However until we figure out what to do about us I am kind of stuck. I am still looking for a second job so that I can move out on my own and while I do think that will make this easier as I will have my own space I do not like the idea of working 50-60 hours a week just to make ends meet because my husband decided to abandon his wedding vows. At the risk of sounding like a child, it's just not fair. Especially knowing that he is unhappy where he is now too. At least when we are together we have our own house and our own things. I know you can relate to this too because of your sitch and being in Poland.
And the other thing I am stressed about now is that even if we work our way through the stages again one fight could send us back to the bottom again. I can't live my life with each fight having the potential to tear us apart again. Yet I also can't live my life as a doormat and pretend that nothing bothers me simply to avoid conflict.
It's just a yucky little life I have built for myself through many many mistakes and now I have to deal with the consequences. I feel like I am just trying to keep my head above water at this point.
