well today is the day he is going to move out officially, he has a u-haul and is moving all his stuff. I think I am not going to hang around and watch. I trust that he won't take stuff he shouldn't and even if he does I think I could ask for stuff back if I really needed it.
I guess most of all I am numb. I have made it through the first week, feel like I am not bleeding as much. Just hanging on waiting to feel normal now.
Yesterday we had a convo in which he said people who support him aren't tearing me down, and if they were he wouldn't be talking to him. I guess that is a good sign.
I am still taking the high road as much as I can. I know one thing is he is waiting for me to blow up on him, I just sense it, and I am not going to, that is old me, I just don't feel that way, I know it wouldn't change anything or help so it isn't worth the energy. I guess that is my biggest 180, hope it makes him think a little.
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08
