New Thread-Husband Moved in With OW(T2L)

[Trying2live]

Watched the movie Fireproof. Yes I cried. Could barely get it together to leave the theater. So big sis and brother go to the park so I am alone.
Still really emotionally drained from the movie. So I decided to go in the garage to dig out boxes of pictures. I signed up for this website called The Family Post about 2 weeks ago. It's really cool. You can set up a family website. So I decide to gather all the pictures over the last 20 some years. I finally found the box I was looking for. And the 1st thing I pull out is pictures of my H and I when we went on a cruise for our 15 year anniversary. To say the least between that and the movie I came unglued and cried for an hour.
I'm so sick of hurting and I am fully aware I should use this time to take care of myself and heal. I am so not ready for the holidays and my 10 year anniversary. I know having a weak moment, it'll pass. Just wanted to whine to someone.
My friend says that her mother went through similar stuff with her H for 2 years and that to be careful as the H's get nostalgic over the holidays, but then around January they fly the coup again and start over. She said her dad did that to her mom 2 years in a row till her mom said that's it it's over. Knowing this I almost don't want H to want to reconcile during holidays and run the risk of starting the whole mess over.
I get to wake up in the morning and watch my son play football which I love but now I have to see my H every Sat. God help me. I'm sure you all remember what happened last Sat. I am determined to keep my mouth shut, but I hate seeing him. I do not know how you guys do it with your H's still living in the home while they are having the A. I do so much better with him out of the house. It's far more healing and I can concentrate better on GAL and myself. I see him you guys and I feel like an alien in my own skin, I just want to run. He has blamed it all on me and says he does not like me. He lashed out in the most God awful emails. I showed one to my pastor and he was shocked. He said it took him 2 days to get over it. What do I do when I see him when I just want to run!!!!
I hope you all are doing better than me. Why why why.

I'm so serious about organizing a march like the million man march protesting Infidelity. Anyone affected can go to the march-children, wives, extended family. Think about it. It probably would be more than a million. It would bring conviction on all those in America doing it. And I would love to have national legislation past to make EVERY state a fault state and maybe have employers make stiffer punishments for employees who commit adultery in the work place. Ok I know sounds crazy but I am so so serious. We protest to save whales, but not the destruction of the family unit do to affairs ya know. Makes no sense.