I think I screwed up. I texted W to see if she could talk today and she called me at lunch. Telling her about the mediation went fine then she told me how angry she was that I invaded her privacy but that she was going to let go of that anger and not be vengeful...I asked what she wanted to do to me and she said that stupid stuff ran through her head like letting the air out of my front morercycle tire so I would be inconvenienced. I said or die next time I ride it. She countered that it would be obvious. But that she wasn't there anymore. I tried to validate but I don't think I did a good job this time.

We We started Big R talk about her feelings for me and she said we should sit down and talk about it sometime. She said that she loves me and respects me and that I'm the father of her child and even a father to her other child. She said that loves me like a sort of brother and she wouldn't ever want anything bad to happen to me. (Here's where I failed big time.) The respect comment and the "wouldn't want anything bad to happen to me" comments I made a laugh sound. She became really hurt, and shut down.

I wanted to hear what she was going to say.

It took every ounce of self control I could muster to not text her with "I'm not your Brother I'm your husband and something bad did...is happening to me."

I also want to tell her that It's hard for me to listen to her say she respects me when she is not respecting me.

Either way I should have listened better and I didn't text her.
I'm supposed to call her tonight to fill her in on D9's Dr. apt.
We'll see. I need all the help I can get.

It just made me feel so shitty.

Last edited by HopefultotheEnd; 09/26/08 08:15 PM.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08

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