DQ -- you do ask the thought-provoking questions. I need to think about it. My first reaction is to respond with, "Because I thought I wasn't any good and never thought I was enough for him." And right after typing this I realize why I've felt that way for a while. After my son was born, my husband withdrew and put all his love into our son. At the same time, I was falling into a routine of work, eat, sleep, and not putting any effort into our sex life. Finally, I discovered my H was looking at online porn and chatting with people. Long story short, we went to MC and things got better. But maybe I just pretended after that. I know that I've thought that he must want crazy, kinky, hot sex all the time and I couldn't give it to him. But the question is, why could I give it to OM? And I'll have to think more about this.
