Reality is starting to kick in and I am starting to worry abuot the huge responsibility of borrowing so much money. However I was always the sensible one with money (as Hs current credit card debts of £8k show!) so providing I make sure the terms are affordable I know I will be ok. If it means I have to stay in and be a nun for the rest of my life so be it (at least that way I will definately be able to honour my original promise to D13 that I would never remarry!)
Anyway I really feel I have to do this and although it is a very daunting prospect I already feel liberated. I know God is watching over me. This morning I drew some money out of one of my accounts to put into the other that pays my bills. I had expected it to leave me quite short of 'emergency' money as I wasn't expecting to get paid until next week. Imagine my surprise when I realised I actually got paid on Wednesday. This has happened on more than one occassion (and always after I have prayed for financial security!).
Take care to you all. I will try and catch up with your sitches early next week.
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15
