Thanks for your thoughts. i know I could have simply replied with a short message saying I was okay with her being there. But I also feel like I've refrained from saying how I felt for much of my sitch. Now that it's over and I'm trying to give myself distance and protection, I wanted to express my feelings. Now that I have done so, I feel like I can turn my back. Up until now I've felt I owed her something. I don't feel that anymore.
BTW, I won't respond to her last email.
I just needed to walk off my reaction to all this emotion. It's getting easier and easier to get it out of my head.
