Dawn, Actually I have 8 kids, 5 girls and 3 boys. The oldest is 22 and the youngest is almost 7. Yes I gave birth to each of them and my Husband is the Father of all of them. You know Dawn, a few years ago I thought just like you do. I thought that everything would just fall into place if only my Husband were not in MLC, and if only he would come home, and there were no OW, then everything in my life would be just perfect. No, I would never give up my right arm for anyone. The difference between you and me is that I no longer have the rose colored glasses on. I see reality for what it is now. I learned how to survive without my Husband, and how to make my life happy even if he never came back. I learned that he is not my reason for living. I love my Husband. I am glad he is home. My Marriage is in a good place. I have learned that I do not need him to be happy, and that I am the prize, NOT him. I do not need anyone to put things into perspective for me, and I do not need a reality check. But I am also human and I am allowed to have a shitty day. MLC survivor or not, trying to work 2 jobs, one part time and one full time and be a wife to my Husband and a Mother to my kids can be overwhelming at times, especially when he is away for 2 weeks and I am trying to do an amazing balancing act.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
