My suspicion is that your H simply wishes he could have gotten from you what the OM got from you. All he can do is recreate it, though. He can't actually get what you gave to OM, because what you gave to OM you gave of your free will. And like it or not, you are only giving any sex to your H right now out of guilt.
Now I have another question...
This will be a tough one but I think it is important to everyone who has had an affair to really answer for themselves...
Do you think you can TRULY have good sex with your husband for the rest of your life, only him, never again cheating...and can you do this BECAUSE YOU ONLY WANT HIM??? Or would it be only out of obligation?
Dont forget the TRULY GOOD part. Of couse you could have "eh" sex with him, but what about GOOD sex?
When you think of your husband, do you fantasize about him?
Do you love his body, his smell, his hands, his features, his skills?
You really must be honest with yourself....or you will never be faithful.
Try to project yourself into the future, you are both a little older, neither of you have significantly changed (emotionally or physically). Do you see this future with happy, hot, sweaty sex in it or not? Please please be honest.
