I guess this past exchange gives me more closure. I can't be friends with someone who stands up in a court of law and testifies that she is absolutely certain she is completely incompatible with me. Unless I'm mistaken, friends need to be compatible.
You and I have talked and I'm fully aware that she feels hurt and pain as well. I tried for many months to show nothing but understanding, patience, love, and positiveness. She responded, but refused to grant us any time together - that would be eating into her phd/work time. She'd decided a long time ago to D without talking to me about it. The rest of this saga was just her choosing a very poor method of trying to let me down easy. But this is what she wanted - to end the relationship. So this is what she gets - the relationship is ended.
The difference between us is that she is focused elsewhere. She said things probably out of desperation and then forgot about them. Those words hurt me deeply and I thought about them again and again. Now she's surprised that I would think certain things? Part of me wants to forward all these emails back to her just so she knows what her words were. But, I won't. I don't need to have the last word.
*sigh* - now I'm back in this crappy space and thinking about it. Time for a walk.
