There are times when H pisses me off so much that I just want to scream. I need to vent right now before I scream.

So the lawyer's office finally got back to me. Getting the car back is going to almost double the payment. Fine, I will deal with that. But this jerk goes on to say I hope you can handle that because I will not be able to help.

Well duh. It's my car. I told him I would handle it. But the thing I don't get is doesn't he understand THAT I LOSE EVERYTHING??? Geez. I lost my husband. I lost my home. I lost my security. I lost my car. I don't give a [censored] about the extra payment.

I just want to beat the sh1t out of him. He started saying you can get a car for 1000-2000 and not pay anything. Oh yeah? Where the he11 am I supposed to get that? DAM. Stupid. Everytime I think we are getting closer, he loses some brain cells and reverts back to an idiot.

I am so ticked off right now.

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..