DQ, Good questions. I've always had issues with sex because of sexual abuse when I was younger. My H was always trying to help me get over these issues but after a while I started to feel like he was trying to get me to do things differently because he wasn't happy. Now I realize he was trying to help, but over the years, I just started to believe that I wasn't making him happy. The A happened when I was in a diff country, away from my family. No excuse at all, but for 12 hours a day, sitting next to someone who was SO interested in me (or so I thought) and thought I was so funny, smart, pretty, etc., I basically just fell for it. Then I started getting addicted to the emotional presents I was getting. Since all this came out, my H and I have had a pretty good sex life. I've felt more free than ever -- but it depends on the mood. Lately, it's just been feeling like nothing -- for both of us. Yuck, how did I get this messed up??
