That is the question I ask myself almost every day... could I really ever forgive him? Would I really be able to trust again?.
And the longer the A goes on the harder that will be. But as mentioned so many times I still need to work on myself, do my 180 for me and future relationships, and if he comes back around I can decide then.
He is seeing his lawyer tomorrow, he told me he wants to sit tight at least till the first of the year. I asked him to please do that as I can't handled going down the divorce process right now. (remember I filed my petition and gave to him to hold all status quo) We'll see how that goes...
He has been staying with OW this week and said he is trying to figure out where he can stay without spending a lot of money. He is trying to show me that he is responsible at least with the girls and wanting to help out when I ask or when he can.
He did share with me that he hasn't told anybody when people ask how his wife and kids are doing .. he is saying "they are doing good". He then asked me - if I was ok for him to tell people that we are separated now. What a joke... I'm like you need to be telling them you are having an A with a 25 yr old and you abbandoned your family.. of course I didn't say this to him I just listened but that is what I was thinking. If he was so proud he would have no problem sharing that info...
T2L I think you had asked me once about the disclosure... obviously he has no intentions of sharing his A with anyone... He is at a function tonight with all his sales reps and she'll be there (she is one of the sales reps)... I somehow want someone to know at work what is going on so they will be exposed... thoughts on this? I of course don't want it coming from me though... I think people would start holding them accountalbe. The mystery is what will keep this so exciting for them.
Anyhow, today is the first day I have not cried in the last 30 days, and I'm actually in a good mood. I told myself when I talked to him this morning that I would be upbeat and that helped. All of you who have been encouraging has really helped me this week with him moving out... so I thank you.
H is watching the girls tomorrow night and I'm going to dinner and drinks (lots of them) with a girlfriend ... so I'm excited that I do have plans....
thoughts on the disclosure and how to go about it???
Me: 38/H:40 M:7yrs TG: 10yrs 2Girls: 4yr & 7 month old Bomb 8/22/08 OW/EA/PA 8/23/08 with 25yr old Moved out 9/22/08
