Lifeline--I don't know if that will help him heal. Sounds more like he is punishing you both. I sat here and read it and said thank you to God, and will eventually say thank you to H, that he never asked me to do that, and I never asked him. Sex is one thing, but that was just degrading IMO.
I share this opinion.
He wanted sex, and he wanted you to do something he even said he knew you weren't going to like. What's that tell you? Says to me he wanted you to do something you wouldn't feel good about. It was some form of punishment, for you, and perhaps even for him.
Are you two seeking MC?
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
