Lifeline--I don't know if that will help him heal. Sounds more like he is punishing you both. I sat here and read it and said thank you to God, and will eventually say thank you to H, that he never asked me to do that, and I never asked him. Sex is one thing, but that was just degrading IMO.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
