Here I am....real life and all.

[Starshyne]

Did I tell you all that when XH came to get his chair several weeks ago he was wearing my Old Navy flag shirt? Did he do that on purpose just to stick it to me again?

He still has a bunch of crap in my garage. It has been over 2 months since he had to be out of the house by law. How long before his stuff is legally mine and I can take it and do whatever I want with it? I feel like he is holding onto this stuff in my garage because he knows this is the only way we communicate. Once everything is moved out, I will have no issues whatsoever in which to talk to him ever again. He wants to talk to me. I know he wants me back.

I still miss him deeply. I still cry at night sometimes just because I miss the man I married. I miss doing all of the things we always did together and the jokes we shared. I don't know if I ever will truely get over all of this. Sure I can move on and move forward, but I am not too sure about really getting over it. I don't know.

Still have issues with sleeping. I was hoping that by re-doing the bedroom and getting a new bed, things would be better. It isn't. Sometimes I can't sleep because I am reliving the everything that happened on May 19. Every word, every action....plays over and over in my mind like a movie. I try to think of the parts that I can't remember. I try to think what I could have or should have done differently. I don't want to have to relive that...I want to sleep. Anyone have experience getting over the major event?