I am so confused right now. I'm not sure what to do....
So how about doing nothing at all?
I understand being in 'limbo' is never any fun, but why not let things lie for now?
You have a number of questions that you must realize you might never get the answers to. Your H doesn't sound so sure himself - he's a bit confused, too, it seems, and as Amy stated, that could be a good thing.
Drop the rope. Let go. Focus on yourself and your D. Live for you.
(((((CW)))))
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
