Okay listen to me - Let me tell you that when my H left I was terrified about not having his income to help pay the bills as we had always only used my credit cards in the whole R and I was the one with the car payment, vacation home, and all utilities in my name. I was able to finally figure out how to make my budget and begining to feel relieved when I was hit with my demotion at work (because my credit score had plummeted & I wasn't bondable).
Listen I was sooo scared I had never been in finacial crisis before, I was one that always had money in savings and now here I was terrified I counldn't afford to live in my apartment anymore. I was scared that I would have to live with one of my friends and this devestated me.
Through all of this I did whatever I could to work through the situation and keep a PMA. Trust me I did have those days where I locked myself in my jobs bathroom and couldn't stop crying but I didn't stop focusing on getting myself better. By the grace of God and doing whatever I could to stay "Normal" I have finally found a place now were I am good. I have a very tight budget but by the end of the year I will back to normal.
I really think you need to try to get out a little more and STOP thinking about the situation so much you are going to go crazy!! Don't even think about what H needs right now, think about what you need!!
