I wish I was handling things well. Last night and today have been miserable...Miss her …miss the kids. I want to call or email but I’m not going to. The kids have their own phone so I can’t even call her on the ploy I wanted to talk to the boys. I’m doing all my GAL stuff but I can’t get my mind off them. I was better before I wrote the damn Email. I was done and didn’t have a hope of getting back together. Now I have (what I believe is) false hope.
I sound like a teenager… but I had to get it off my chest. This is really the only outlet I have. I can’t talk to my friends about it. You know how guys are we have to put up that tuff front even if we are dying inside. I am sure this will pass Thanks for listening.
Me 49 W 38 M 12 T 16 Sep Mar 9 2008 2 Boys 7 and 10