Hello, I was reading someone else's post and in one of the replies someone wrote to the original poster something about since she had the affair she needs to accept the consequences. I'm in a similar situation in that I had the affair and I've been trying to stay upbeat and positive and am in IC.
My consequence last night? My H, whom I understand is completely devastated and in the darkest place imaginable, came to bed at 1 a.m. He lay there for a few minutes before calling my name.
I replied, "Yes" so he would know I was awake. He said, "I think I want some sex." Completely cold. I said, "Okay," because how can I reject him when I never rejected the OM?
He said, "You aren't going to like what I have in mind." Or something to that effect.
He said he wanted to roleplay. It was to be a re-creation of the last night I was with OM.
And I did it. The whole time I kept thinking, "This is what he needs to feel better."
But this morning I couldn't even look him in the eye.
