Checked out the stains. NOT what I supposed them to be. Relief.
Had a MC session with her and she did most of the talking and I the listening. She claims that I am angry, but more accurately I was neutral. She admits that I am not yelling, raising my voice, or agrumentative as in the past (bad habits from my parents) and she thinks that I am just supressing it. She is used to me being the loudest in the house with the strongest opinions and is suspicious of the change in behavior and calmness I now seem to have.
In reality, diplomacy is the best course of action and I am trying to get that into my home life. She says I am a faker and I really feel more at peace and less anxious. She thinks that is abnormal for me. Really, it is just new and a result of me realizing what my past behavior was that drove us apart and her to OM.
She was very complementary of me during teh session and my parenting and the things the MC asked about our early relationship and she indicated a willingness to keep working on the R and was hopeful that the changes she sees in me are premanent and I personally feel that they are and will make me a better parent and spouse.
