Oh Lord yes. I was too controlling, he wanted a divorce, he could never be with me again, he did not see a future. It is hard to imagine when you are in the midst of it, that they are all common words. I remember thinking okay yes everyone's WAS says that, but mine really means it. He will never see me as anything but the enemy.
It hurts, and you do feel as if nothing will ever change. It is hard, because I think alot of it is about being ready to let go. Being ready to just take a break. You will get to the point where your mind just needs a rest, and you will be ready to take it. That's when the tides turn.
Once I hit that point, I knew that I just needed to let go. I needed to plan my life as if I was going to be alone, but still have faith that eventually things would work out. And now, although there are times when H still backs off, for the m ost part, we have hit the friendship phase, and it is good. It is like falling in love all over again. At least for me...I can't speak for him.
Sometimes, its about out with the old, and in with the new. Its about starting over.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
