New Thread-Husband Moved in With OW(T2L)

[marisol35]

Hi everyone!

I totally agree with T2L on every aspect you talked about! That is my favorite song too!

After my trip I realized I can make it anywhere if I put my mind to it. Whether its where I live now or somewhere else. But it does make it easier to be somewhere else because you know you can't run into him or he can't just come over unannounced or you won't run into him and OW in a restaurant or something. That is why I felt so at peace when I was in Chicago. I felt so free because I was free from him.

But then I come back and knowing he is here makes me want him back. I can't believe its over and he truly wants this D. Its just so hard to accept. I just want us to start over.

Last night we found out his grandmother passed away. He sent me a text to let our D16 know and I called him to send my condolences. When I got home D16 sat with me watching TV and she just started to cry saying how sad she was for my MIL because her mom died and then she goes on to say how much she wants her dad and brother back. It was awful. I told her no matter what we were going to be ok but that I loved her dad more than anything its just I can't make someone love me or want to be with me. He has to want that in order for us to be together. Its so hard. There is so much pain in this world happening every second of the day.

I dream about my H almost every night. You just feel so helpless because we want to help our H's get out of this fog but there is absolutely nothing we can do. We can only work on ourselves because that is what we have full control over.

Patience......patience.....patience