God give me the patience and the strength...7

[theotherhalf]

H was here when I got home yesterday. He had just finished mowing hay. He walked to me as I was getting out of the car. I waved. He smiled. He came into the house. He was in a sort of good mood but had an attitude with me. I kind of gave it back. (we were both being sarcastic I guess you could say). He didn't stay long, said he was tired.

I mowed lawn till dark. It takes me 3 hrs!! Anyway I called H about 9:15 as he would be getting up for work. I wanted to tell him to check on the electric fencer as the calves were reaching their heads through the fence. He was being very short. Told him about a guy calling to talk to him. "K" he said. Ticked me off. So I said, "sorry I bothered you, just wanted to relay those messages, have a good night" and I hung up.

I am trying not to think too much about all this but DAMB he drives me crazy! Sunday he spends all day and all night here. Then since he is avoiding me like the pleg and his attitude makes me think he is up to something with OW again. Otherwise why the attitude! Why the avoiding!

Last night I told myself that I'll be dambed if I call him again! For anything! He wants to be left alone, fine! I am so tired of being treated with such disrespect!...well that's how I feel today, we'll see how long it lasts...