Well...to make a long story short I have been kissing his behind for the last 7 or 8 months...taking all the blame...everything and anything I could do to make him want to come back and I finally hit a wall. He had just accused me of being insincere about wanting work with him on visitation with our D so I flipped my lid and basically let out every frustration I had about him. While I was reaming him he told him he was "working on a letter" for me but that it didn't matter now (I had just told him I hated him and didn't care about him anymore). When I asked what letter...he said his counselor told him he should write me a letter telling me everything he appreciated about me so he could get over the anger. I don't know if that is his counselors way of helping him to get over the R and move on or what, but I suppose I'll never know now. You're a man...any ideas what he might be thinking?
Now..on you being optimistic...it's okay to have a positive attitude as long as you don't delude yourself and you aren't unrealistic about things....I think you are handling things well