He wants me to know that he is there for me if I need him....I'm not even going to comment on that. I just said thanks, I'm doing good, have just been busy and now I am getting ready to leave again so bye.
Feeling sad today. Maybe because part of me feels like I should have my partner here to feel the relief with, but I dont so it makes me feel even lonelier. Make sense? I am going to just try and acknoledge the pain and then try and let it go. I dont want to carry it around with me. Need to listen to some happy music and find something to laugh at.
I found detachment to be an emotional state that takes time to make peace with. Often, our minds can come to a conclusion, and our hearts then take several cycles (days, weeks, months or years depending on the emotional investment) to catch up. I think this is one of the reasons WAS pull back after getting close to us - a bit of their head knowing it is the right thing, but their hearts needing a bit more time to catch up.
No question that you are more at peace with your life, but it is also natural that there will be sadness, especially around significant dates, and significant events, like confirmation that you will be disease free. I like your approach of acknowledging the sadness, and letting it move on by.
Slowly
