my story

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I think the thing that kills me is I don't know if being nice is better than not talking to him at all. I feel like being nice and working to get along is the best thing for the kids, but I worry that it makes it look like I am cool with this whole separation/d thing, and really I am not. I have told him I don't want this and that I love him and want to work it out, I did that several times when we made this decision. Should I just trust that he knows how I feel and not worry if being nice makes it look like I changed my mind.